Why do you love me? - he asked me, on a cold night

Nice question.
Why?
first answer: I just do.
the other reasons that come to my mind:  because you make me feel happy and alive. because you're smart and honest and sweet, and kinky and have all these nice thoughts and do all the nice things just because you feel them.
because of a lot of reasons, and only because of one. because you make me happy. and make me want to be better.
because you understand me and take me as I am and you don't judge me. mainly because you are my soul-mate. but that's no reason, i didn't know that when I met you or when I fell for you. I fell for you like a virgin falling for her first guy. well, maybe not like that, but i had all the butterflies of the virgin love. still have them. I still shiver when I picture your smile and your look and close my eyes and almost feel you touching my soul. and the way I felt when we were in S. yeah. and also when I first touched your hand. that was just pure shiver and happiness. just felt happy and I didn't have to do anything for it. didn't feel I have to give something in return. I just felt happy and no remorse for doing something that made me happy.

back to square one. I love you because you are the way you are and you allowed me to know you like that. and because you opened up to me in a way that made me open up to you. and it's a circle that doesn't really have a start and an end. it's just round. I love you because you love me. it's a two way street. there is no other kind of love that's this pure. and it's conditional in the good way. it exists only because it's a two way street. it started like that and we both know it. it started because of a need for happiness and of comfort inside. you say it was an eye fuck. i agree. but behind that eye fuck was this need for happiness we both had. I didn't know it, you didn't know it. I denied it, I didn't search for it. Not when I found you. I dreamed about it a long time ago, then just gave up. yeah.

sex. of course sex. and love. and fuck. and bang bang. whatever. sex. we can call it any name. but the meaning is the same. it's a connection between two people. sometimes is nice, sometimes is great, sometimes is just hormones flying around. sometimes it sucks and nobody needs it anymore :)) and sometimes is perfect without any buts :)) . I think we had perfect sex in S. because we love each-other the way we both need it.

I don't really know or understand how it works, but i am more and more convinced of the idea of soul-mates. it makes more sense everyday. there's a story about the way people were made at the beginnings. they were pairs - man with woman, with their bodies united and connected to each other. and some Greek god or goddess separated them and cursed them to always seek their pair, their other half. so since then, people are searching for their pair, their other half, the other person that fills the void inside them and their reality. the one person that can stare at them and not get bored or look away because they have to blink.  some find it fast, some never find it and some find it when they need it, not when it's the best moment in their lives.

I think we found each-other when wee needed to. I don't know what to do from now on. I just feel i have to hold on to you and don't let go. I don't want to let go. I found you and you are the way I need you to be. the way I dreamed someone would be next to me. I see myself with you. I can imagine me next to you and doing things and building things with you. I don't know why. because I have no reality to ground these feelings in. I just have this feeling.